maybe it's time to say goodbye now...

July 27, 2003 | 11:14 pm

man...

i quit. i just freakin' give up.

i don't need "friends" that are going to leave me in a bad mood all day. i don't need people who make me wonder if i should bother with them.

i just don't think i can let myself get upset anymore. the only way to do that is to just let her go. because if i was as important to her as she always said, i wouldn't even be debating whether or not to stay friends with her.

it's just that it fucking hurts. because i knew we were going to be friends for the rest of our lives. she was my best friend in my entire life. we were inseperable. and now it's just too easy for her to live her life without me in it. so i guess the only person i need to think about now is me. cuz apparenly she'll be fine without me.

and when i started losing her, i gained the best friends i have ever had and probably ever will have. and i KNOW for a FACT that they will be my friends unti the end. even if i have to ignore that voice in the back of my head that makes me think it'll end up the way my friendships always do.

but with them, it won't end up that way. it just won't. they wouldn't let it.

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