junk

May 17, 2003 | 2:05 am

lately, i've really had a lot to write in here, but i just don't feel like it. i don't know how many times this week i've come to diaryland to add an entry, but then i never do.

i'm not sure what that's about. i mean, i'm i just too lazy to do it, or do i just not feel like i need it. like maybe i don't really feel like i need this outlet. or maybe it's because i'm not really writing to "real" people. ya know?

ugh, i don't know what my deal is.

then half the time i end up writing when i feel like this, i just say, "i don't know" a million times. so it's pointless anyway.

and, i don't really feel like any way i'm communicating with people is working. whether this, email, or the friendster thing. i'm just like, ok, hello? is anyone actually out there?

on a side note: i have to go meet with the manager of one of the restaurants i applied at. and i have to call another one. i have to do that tomorrow at 2:30. and call between 2 and 4. so, i might have a job. should be full time. i'm scared. i hate working. even though i've applied to be a freaking hostess. like that's hard. i just get like this. i hate meeting people. a lot. and i hate not knowing what i'm doing. even if they expect me not to know anything. i don't know man, i have issues.

but i do need money. really badly. i'm getting to be very, very poor.

whatever. goodnite.

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